Saturday, April 19, 2008

Prayer, Anger; Anger, Prayer

Food for thought, taken from the book 'Prayer' by Philip Yancey,

"As Dorothy Sayers once remarked, we all have our diabolical thoughts, but there's a world of difference in how we act on those thoughts, whether, say, we write a murder mystery or commit murder. If a person wrongs me unjustly, I have several options. I can seek personal revenge, a response condemned by the Bible. I can deny or suppress my feelings of hurt and anger. Or, I can take those feelings to God, entrusting God with the task of retributive justice. The cursing psalms are vivid examples of that last option. The authors are expressing their outrage to God, not to the enemy.

Instinctively, we want to clean up our feelings in our prayers, but perhaps we have it all backwards. Perhaps we should strive to take all our worst feelings to God. After all, what would be gossip when addressed to anyone else is petition when addressed to God. What is a vengeful curse when spoken about someone ('Damn those people!') is a plea of helpless dependence when spoken directly to God ('It's up to you to damn those people - only you are a just judge').

I see the cursing psalms as an important model for how to deal with evil and injustice. I should not try to suppress my reaction of horror and outrage at evil. Nor should I try to take justice in my own hands. Rather, I should deliver those feelings, stripped bare, to God. As the Books of Job, Jeremiah and Habakkuk clearly show, God has a high threshold of tolerance for what is appropriate to say in prayer. God can 'handle' my unsuppressed rage. I may well find that my vindictive feelings need God's correction - but only by taking those feelings to God will I have that opportunity for correction and healing. "

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Quiet time

I am currently reading a book by Philip Yancey called "Prayer". In one of the chapters, Philip mentioned that he attended a camp and was challenged to spend 2 hours a day alone on prayer. The 2 hours alone made him realised how important quiet time in our lives is for us to get close to our Heavenly Father.

Later this week, in my church weekly program called "Accelerate", solitude was mentioned again. It makes me realise how busy I have been in my life with little things: things that I do for work, for my relationship, for my family, and at church; that I didn't realise that I have neglected to set quiet time apart for God.

I do read my Bible, but sometimes, it becomes a routine that I have to follow. Through the messages these few weeks, it finally came to me that God does not care about how many "things" that I have done. I knew about this, but only this week that I finally had the revelation. I don't have to impress Him. All that He wants is my time with Him. I am so thankful that He is such a loving God, who looks into our heart more than our deeds. It resets my attitude in spending time with Him; not because I need to, but because I would like to.